Monday, 7 December 2015 4:32 am 0 note(s)

My life today, was unexpectedly okay. I would say I was somewhere between nothingness and happiness. It was normal for me to say the least. Except for the fact that my friend and I parted away and I would be sitting at home doing housework. I just hope I get my life going while learning wasn't my first priority anymore but working is, also helping my parents with the housework. Anyway, I got a new laptop. Yup I do. When my mom had me to pick , either fixing my laptop or bought a new one. I was contemplating either fixing it or bought a new one. My sister insist on buying a new laptop but I went for the price instead. Well, if I everyone could say I would actually pick the fixing my laptop one, frankly I was thinking the same thing about it but then I had to admit the urge of having a new laptop and all the whispering in my ears I end up picking the latter. So here I am typing out with my new laptop. I had no idea how the laptop function because of the windows they use in here. My old one was a window 7, I presume? And the new one was window 8 so I kinda new to this window stuff.

Since the new laptop were bought, I might as well quickly finish updating stuff but jokes on me, I cant! Because I didn’t have a photoshop on my new laptop and I'm not use to editing blog without photoshop. One of the few resource I needed the most. If mom hadn't have to leave town for her work, I might as well follow her to her work (because the internet is so fucking fast you can literally download 5 videos at the same time, trust me, I went gaga after downloading vid at her work). I now have to wait for her this Friday, but oh well Friday wasn't my good day for a walk or a visit to the outside world so I have to wait for another week. Plus mom work too hard, I kinda she needs a call for a rest…

One of the thing that's going on my life is that I just started roleplay today. Some of you might get the idea of what I'm talking and if you don't, no need to be curious, I reckon you not to involve in the rp world, mark my word! Ok so here's the problem that I have face when I went back to rp (twitter I must say the least). Rp to me was an escape from the outside world who only see me as an introvert with shabby clothing and nerd appearance. It use to be fun for me but now, it wasn't. I cant see the main point of rping anymore.  I started rp when I was like 12, yeah too early to be involve in such antisocial way. Back then it was all about making friend and just literally be nice to everyone. But as time passes by for me, I came to realise, it could emotionally hurt you, one of the thing I reckon you not to get involve. I'm not saying rp is a one way at ruining your social life, if you knew how to balance between both virtual and reality you may proceed. So what I have seen (on twitter at least) that now, people tend to create a squad between them. If not on this certain company, they create a new one and invite the whole squad to join. To me, it not fair. One bit. What about the new one that join in? I knew if they weren't fun to joke, they wouldn't even try to talk to you. And from every rp perspective I see was how the quality was a necessity. They wanted to match so they could blend well with each other. Lame! It started when I was rping at the age of 14 that people start searching for quality. What's wrong with not having to fulfil your 'to-be-friend' with list? Yeah quality is important but it would eventually end up you gathering other squad anyway so it's boring.

And most thing I notice now was people still desperately searching for relationship! Back then it was still the same but I just wish as time goes by people would try and get more friends instead of desperately wanting someone to be their mr or mrs right. What annoys me more that they're showing off how sweet they are together. Nobody cares, I had to tell you. As much as you thought people would, they aren't. why don’t they just keep it in dm and never bother anyone else anymore with sweet nothing and showing off on tl. I was hoping when I went back everything would be ok, but it went worse. Well I must say, maybe I was growing and things like this doesn’t entertain me anymore. At this point, rp doesn't interest me anymore, not one bit.

Cough because I end up blabbering about random stuff. Just so you know, it just me releasing my pent up anger over my rp life (real life was ok tho). I'll try and redo back my blog template and other stuff. My friends were desperately wanting me to let them read my blog, as if I insist it! But they're a sturrbon little as, how would I say no, shrugs.