Friday, 22 March 2013 10:49 pm 0 note(s)

hey so i realize something. it all started when there's 4 chinese girls came to my school and told us about their experience learning on state and said we should had some experience too and i'm starting to think about my future and it's really getting out of my mind rn

i ask my mom, when will i continue on stpm? (because i am taking language course) and my mom said after my spm and i am like, srsly? i didn't even yet take my pmr test. i'm starting to doubt my ambition. it's like, what will happen with my future? could i survive? i am worried i might do something stupid because of my stress in work.

it's not like it's a big deal but i don't know why it worries the shit out of me. maybe because i won't have time to even sit on my bed and rest or even socializing on the internet and fangirling because times. the older i am, the lesser fun i get. even at this age of mine, i don't really have any fun.

i am starting to lose confident on being a writer. but i have no reason on giving up. yes i do have a reason but it doesn't even make sense. i'm going to ask my mother would it be okay if i rest for 3 month and start on my stpm. i want to rest after 10 years of learning. it's not even fair, really.

i really need someone with much experience so i could learn on how to deal with my life. i hate it when everything is playing on my mind and couldn't even press the stop button.